Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Oh what a crazy week. Lately I have been spending most of my days figuring out college and financial aid stuff for school in the Fall. Confusing stuff I tell ya! Everything seemed so much more simple when I went to college after graduating from high school. I don't know if it's because of my age and the (pathetic) amount of money I make or just because I applied for financial aid a little bit late this year, but I didn't get any grants at all, just one measly Stafford Loan and that's not going to cut it so now I have to nag the financial aid office until they give me some more money to play with.

Today I discovered an abundance of spy ware on my work computer. Eeek! Getting rid of it is not a fun task, let me tell you. I think I have managed to kill most of it, but there are still a few things floating around messing up my system.

I have to start doing some research on laptops, as I want to get one for school since I will be taking my classes online. I have a home computer, well, it's Cory's actually, but it's a piece of junk. It's a few years old already so I shouldn't expect much from it. A laptop will be much better for me anyway because it will allow me to do my school work from almost anywhere.

I have never owned a laptop so I'm not even sure what to look for, or what to steer clear of. Any advice?

Monday, June 28, 2004

So Friday started out to be one of the worst days of my life...

Actually I should start this story from Thursday night so...

Thursday night I was talking to my mom on the phone. I had been on the phone with her for about 2 hours and it was already around 11:00 PM so I let the dog out to do her business before I hung up with my mom. I was sleepy and could barely keep my eyes open. So I let the dog out, hang up with my mom, fold some laundry, let Delilah back inside and then I went to bed.

As soon as I got in bed and my head hit the pillow I thought Oh my god. Jasper is outside. I know he is. Oh no. *Jasper is one of my two cats. He's about 3 or 4 years old. We found him as a stray in 2001 & we have kept him as an indoor cat ever since* I told myself that I was just being paranoid and I would have noticed if he snuck out the door when I was letting Delilah in. Normally I wouldn't have been able to convince myself that everything was fine so easily, but for some reason I really thought I was just being ridiculous & fell asleep.

On Friday morning I woke up, took a shower, got ready for work and went downstairs to let Delilah out before I left for the day. Then it hit me. I hadn't seen Jasper while I was getting ready. Usually he hangs out in the bathroom & bedroom with me while I'm getting ready in the mornings. *PANIC* I freaked out. I ran around every room of the house calling him and checking every spot he would be. I filled the cats' bowls with food..... still no Jasper. By now I was in shock. I couldn't believe this was happening. My cats had never escaped before. I had never been careless enough to let it happen. How could I have let it happen?

I called Cory at work and asked him if he had seen Jasper that morning. He said no. Then the tears came. The reality of it sunk in and I couldn't control my emotions. I was a blubbering fool with visions of my poor little kitty flattened on the road like pizza, or tortured and set on fire by some psychotic children. Of course Cory gave me the lines that anyone would say at that moment to console me... "Oh, he will come back. He will find his way home. Don't worry." Yeah...that wasn't helping. Somehow I managed to choke back the tears and call work to tell them I couldn't come in because my indoor cat escaped & was missing somewhere outside. I am sure my boss thinks I'm a moron for being so upset about a cat, but, I don't care what he thinks. My pets are basically like my children. I know animals are capable of taking care of themselves outdoors but the thought of never seeing my kitty again was something I couldn't just brush off.

Anyway... I walked around the neighborhood calling his name, hesitantly peaking down the roads for road kill (thank goodness there was none in sight). I paced around the house for the rest of the day, periodically checking outside and calling Jasper's name. I called two of the local animal shelters/pounds and left info with them in case someone brought him in. I made a LOST CAT flyer and emailed it to Cory. He printed out 50 at work! When he got home at around 4:00 we drove all around the neighborhood and bordering neighborhoods stapling the flyers to telephone polls.

My hope was fading as the day was getting closer to its end. Saturday was Cory's youngest sister's high school graduation and I still had to get a new shirt and shoes to wear to match a skirt I bought for it. I really wasn't in the mood to shop, but I had no choice so at around 6:00 I went out to the mall while Cory stayed at home to keep an eye out for Jasper. I was gone for close to two hours and I was really wishing that when I walked in the door I would see my kitty's face, but no such luck. I decided to go outside one last time at around 8:30 PM since it was getting dark. I stood on the back porch and called his name and made those kissy cat calling noises. I really didn't expect anything but suddenly........

I heard a little *MEOW*


I thought maybe I was hearing things. It was too good to be true. I looked up and there was his adorable little face peeking at me from some tall grass at the side of our yard. I could not believe it. It must have looked like something out of a corny romance movie. I ran out into the yard towards him as he was running towards me. I swooped him up in my arms and hugged him and squeezed him and kissed him and asked him where he had been. *awww*

So, what started out as, quite possibly, the worst day of my life ended up to be a happy one. I am still amazed that he found his way home. I am so curious as to where he was for the 20 hours or so that he was missing.

I would have had the most horrible time at Megan's graduation party too if Jasper hadn't come home on Friday night. Everything was good though. Yesterday was a good day. I was so proud to see her graduate. I have known Cory's family since I was about 11 or 12 years old, and Megan was about 5 or 6 so I have watched her grow up. It's amazing that she is now an "adult." My sister graduates next year. Yikes. That makes me feel old.

Yesterday was uneventful. I spent it cleaning and watching a few Buffy episodes on DVD. I keep looking at Jasper, and thinking how lucky I am to have him home. It would have eaten at me for the rest of my life if he had disappeared for good. I would hate to not know what happened to him... if he was dead...alive....hurt...loved by some other family... lost... hungry. I would have missed him prancing up onto my bed everynight just before I fall asleep, wanting me to pet him.... I would have missed him walking around on the bathroom sink, getting in my way while I try to brush my teeth (because he loves the smell of mint) .... I would have missed the way he gets all huffy and snorts at you when you touch him anywhere remotely near his bum. Yeah......I love my kitties... what can I say? I'm a crazy cat lady.

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

I created those creatures for a project. The yellow creature's name is Spazz and the orange one is Noodle. The idea for the project was to create two freaky characters. One will be put up for auction on Ebay to benefit Nervousness, and one will be sent to another member of the site.

I forgot to take a picture of my creations before I mailed them out but luckily the person organizing the project posted a photo of them. These were the first things I have ever really sewn on my own without my mom's help so I was proud of them even though they are goofy looking!


Tuesday, June 22, 2004

Oy! What a bad time to decide to change my layout. I was busy almost all weekend and I was busy all day yesterday at work. Today I actually haven't had any work to do so I have been fiddling around with this stupid blog but I just can't seem to get a layout I'm happy with. So for the time being ... I hope you like green ;)

Well, now that I have wasted away most of my day and haven't accomplished anything I suppose I should go do something more productive.


Saturday, June 19, 2004

Excuse the mess!

I'm working on changing my layout. Not sure which one I will go with, still trying to decide. Once I choose one I will put my comments & links back up. I am hoping to have this all done either sometime this weekend or Monday.

Ooops I just realized I didn't do this weeks Friday Forum, I will have to do a belated one once I get this mess straightened out.


Monday, June 14, 2004

I don't know if I mentioned this here already or not, but last weekend Cory & I bought a new couch. At the furniture store they told us that the one we chose was back ordered and wouldn't be in until at least the 22nd of this month. Well, on Friday night when I got home from work there was a message on our answering machine that the couch had arrived and we could come pick it up anytime.

We didn't want to spend the extra money on having it delivered and thought it wouldn't be such a big deal to do it ourselves.... that was a big mistake! The couch was light enough (only 125 pounds) and it slid easily into the bed of Cory's truck but it was a nightmare trying to fit it through the doorways of our house.

After three hours of struggling and taking doors off hinges and lots of pushing and pulling and struggling we finally managed to get it in the house but it JUST BARELY fit, but finally we got it into the living room. Though, while we were shoving it through the doorway that leads from our kitchen to the living room, bunches of white paint streaked all over the sides of my brand freaking new cocoa colored couch. Eeek! Luckily the paint came off with a damp sponge, otherwise I think I would have clawed my own eyeballs out.

I'm glad that whole fiasco is over with and now I have a nice comfy couch for taking naps on :)

Friday, June 11, 2004

I have been so horrible with updating lately. Seems like for the past few weeks I have only made an average of two posts per week. I have to get back on the ball here! Anyway, here's another round of the Friday Forum!

1. Have you ever seen or met a world leader [or a high-ranking government official] in person? When and where? What was the experience like? Not that I can recall, though in elementary or middle school we took a field trip to the New York State Capitol in Albany. Perhaps I shmoozed with a few government officials while I was there? :)

2. Have you ever had the desire to run for a public/political office? Why/why not? No, never. I don't find politics interesting enough to pursue a career of any sort in that field. I would be horrible in any sort of public/political office anyway because I am horrible when it comes to making decisions.

3. Who do you feel has been the most memorable world leader so far? Why? Oh there are so many, I don't know how I could choose just one. I think most leaders are memorable, some for good reasons and some for bad. For example, Hitler will remain a memorable leader for horrible reasons of course. Sir Winston Churchill was a good man. In US history several presidents are very memorable including George Washington, Abraham Lincoln, The Roosevelts, JFK, Nixon (again, for bad reasons). It would take me all day to explain why those men are memorable, but I think the reasons are obvious anyway.

4. What, if anything, would you most like to improve about your country? Throw GW out of office! That would be a great start! But seriously, I can't choose just one thing (told you I am a horrible decision maker!), there are so many things that I would like to see change in the US. I think education needs improvement, especially in urban areas, health care costs & insurance, we all need to start taking better care of the environment, and I think same sex marriage should be made legal in all states. I could go on, but those are some major things I think need to be worked on.

5. What are your thoughts about the recent passing of former U.S. President Ronald Reagan? Even though I was aware that he was already in his 90s and had been ill for many years I was shocked to hear of his death. I was born in 1980, and I was too young to remember Carter, and Reagan was president when I was finally old enough to grasp the concept of who and what The President was, so it's peculiar to know that he is no longer alive. He might not have been the greatest president in US history, and there are things he did during his presidency that I certainly don't agree with, but he seemed to be a good man, and I always thought it was interesting that he used to be an actor. I am glad that they have closed federal and local government offices as a day of remembrance for him (even though I'm not one of the lucky few to have it off and I won't be getting my paycheck in the mail today because of it! Hmmpf!).

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Last night when I got home from work two of the boys next door rode up my driveway on their bikes. The ensuing conversation made me sad. I will sum it up as best as I can...


Me: pretty self explanatory!
C: 12 years old. Middle brother of the three boys next door
R: 14 years old. Oldest brother of the three boys next door


Me: (stepping out of car as boys ride up the driveway) What's up?
C: Nuttin'
R: Nuttin'
Me: Oh yeah?
C: Oh my girlfriend is coming over tonight.
Me: Oh, that's nice.
(looks at me and smirks) She's ugly! (referring to C's girlfriend)
C: Yeah right! You are just friggin' GAY!
R: Whatever! (as they both roll away on their bikes)
Me: (left standing there shaking my head in disgust and sadness)

When I have kids someday I will be sure to make them understand that being gay is not a disease, it's not something to be ashamed of, it's not an insult, it's not a label. It's really sad that kids grow up thinking that calling someone else gay is the ultimate insult. Those boys next door are going to grow up to be even more ignorant than they are already.

I just don't understand how people can raise their children to be so ignorant. How could you not want your child to be accepting and understanding of all people no matter what their sexual orientation, skin color, age, sex.... ?

If these people really insist on being against homosexuality and choose, for some ridiculous reason, to be offended by it then the least they can do is to keep their views to themselves, rather than throwing around "gay" in an insulting context. They shouldn't be forcing a child to grow up thinking that gay equals bad. Let the kid make that decision on their own when they are old enough to understand it, because we all know that most kids will believe and mimic anything they see or hear their parents do.


Friday, June 04, 2004

I'm so happy! When I went home for lunch today I peeked at my flower bed and noticed little itty-bitty green leaves poking through the dirt! Yay! Something is finally growing. Judging by the location in the flower bed I'm guessing it's the Zinnia. Oooh I'm so proud. I feel like I'm watching a baby grow.

So, it's Friday! You know what that means (or maybe you don't?) It's once again time for the FridayForum!

1. Name three people, living or dead, who you'd love to invite over for a dinner party. What would you serve?

Hmmm... well this would be a surprise theme dinner party and I would invite Emeril, Jamie Oliver, and Mr. Food. The surprise would be that they would get to cook for me! (Betcha didn't see that one coming!) They would serve me anything I wanted. I'm thinking french fries, mashed potatoes, pasta, and many, many types of dessert.

Sorry. I should have been more serious about that question, but I really couldn't narrow it down to three people, so why not invite three professional chefs to cook for me?! I would let them eat too, of course. I'm not that evil.

2. What does your all-time favorite meal consist of? Which foods do you like the least?

My favorite thing to eat is pasta, specifically lasagna. That's a meal in itself. There isn't much that goes along with lasagna anyway. Oh, broccoli. That would be good: Lasagna (with no meat!) and broccoli = perfect.

There are so many foods I don't like (I have had major issues with food my whole life) but the things I hate the most are fish/seafood, and any kind of meat (other than chicken, and turkey once in a while).

3. Do you enjoy a food combination that some might consider unusual [for example, barbecue sauce with French fries]?

I like French Fries dipped in almost anything, including Wendy's Frosties, just like Lisanne!

I don't think this is so strange but everyone gives me weird looks when they see me eat it: a toasted bagel (plain or onion) with cheese melted on each half with pickles and a little bit of ketchup. And when we go to Subway I get a chicken breast sub, with american cheese, russian dressing, pickles and lettuce. That might not seem too strange but when I get home with the sub, I open it up and peel off the chicken and throw it out (sometimes I will eat a bite or two but I usually don't like how it tastes), and I get rid of most of the lettuce. Then I am left with a cheese, russian dressing, pickles, and a little bit of lettuce sub. Why do I even bother getting and wasting the chicken do you ask? Well, the chicken melts the cheese perfectly and I really don't like cold cheese. I know it's a waste of food, but it makes me happy.

4. Do you have any food weaknesses [i.e., chips, candy, cookies]? Do you usually manage to avoid the temptation or give in?

I usually find it hard to give into temptation if I am craving a certain food, but I guess it all depends on how bad I want a particular food at the time I see it. I love candy of almost any kind, especially Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, Reese's Pieces, Sour Watermelons, Jelly Belly Jelly Beans. I also love Cannoli's, anything with cream cheese frosting, chocolate chip cookies (or just the raw dough), peanut butter, italian bread, potatoes, pasta, and more. Yeah, I love unhealthy food. Don't get me wrong, I love a lot of healthy food (mostly fruit and vegetables) but they aren't things that I usually "crave."

5. Which foods/recipes have you never tried but would like to?

There are so many I would love to try. I barely ever cook, and when I do I usually burn something, but I really would love to learn to make many recipes, especially desserts. I love looking at fancy cakes and desserts, like the ones in The Whimsical Bakehouse.

Lately I have been wanting to make chicken salad. I tried making it once before a few months ago and it came out so bad I couldn't eat it. Well, we had some bbq chicken leftover so last night I shredded it all up by hand, mixed in some mayonnaise, some diced celery and tarragon. It came out really good. I was proud of myself. I should try cooking/creating in the kitchen more often.

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

I vanished for a few days. I intended to post yesterday but I was so tired and lazy all day I just couldn't even force myself to sign onto Blogger.

So what have I been up to?

Well, on Friday night after work I finally planted flowers in the new raised flower bed Cory built for me. I really had no clue what I was doing so it will be interesting to see if this stuff grows. I planted some bright magenta colored Vincas that I bought a flat of recently, a row of Dahlia seeds, followed by a row of Zinnia, and a row of some sort of Lily bulbs. That was probably too much to smoosh into one flower bed, but, I doubt they will all grow anyway.

Other than the planting my weekend consisted mainly of movie watching. I watched a few rented movies and on Sunday night we went to see The Day After Tomorrow. It was good, but only because of the special effects. The storyline and characters were, for the most part, lame. This is definitely a movie that is only worth seeing at the theater. It received horrible reviews but I think this is one of the most visually exciting movies I have ever watched. The special effects were realistic, enough so to make me forget for a few seconds that this was computer generated and a big tidal wave wasn't really crashing over the skyline of NYC. If you feel that paying $9 to see a movie for the sole purpose of really good special effects is worth it then definitely go see this movie, but if you are looking for a really captivating, mind blowing plot then skip this one.